Today has sucked so horribly. I've only just gotten home from the ER visit with B. In the car, he suddenly dislocated his shoulder and off to the hospital we had to go. He was sedated and I watched as they popped it right back in. There were X-rays and lots of fun needle stuff. What sucks is that he's probably going to have to go into surgery for it. That means some hard times ahead of us. Healing time and work do not go together.

On top of that, my mother called me from the hospital tonight. Apparently she was admitted yesterday for sever pneumonia and heart troubles. No one called me until today. She's probably going to have to go into Open heart surgery tomorrow/today. I'm just so worried I'm going to lose her and I'm not going to be around. I'm not going to be able to say goodbye.

This is all just affecting me because of two years ago when she had her first heart attack and they gave her a month to live. Sure, she's live longer than a month but she's wearing herself down. I'm so tired of crying and I'm so worn down. I just feel empty.

Go hug your mother.